I Still Love You

I used to drown
Being underwater
It was a strain
Fighting for air
Fighting to swim
Something held me down
Kept me from breathing
I tried to float, but always sank.
I had no escape
Drowing underwater
But I still love you

You saved me
Confronted my fears
Taught me I could breathe
Taught me I could swim
Taught me I could laugh
You showed me kindness
Showed me happiness
Gave my life a meaning

But you broke my friendship

Why?
Was I not smart enough
Was I not fit enough
Was I not worthy
Did I ask too much
Did I give you pain
But I still love you.

And now I’m drowning
And realizing
It was you
You are holding me down
Stopping me from breathing
From calling help

But still I need you
I can’t forget you

Your words grab my ankles
Pulling me down
Im kicking and fighting
No one to save me
No one to help
You don’t save me
I’m drowning
Underwater

But I still need you
I can’t forget you

But I still love you